mY SiGn: *Gemini*
"The most merciful thing in the world... is the inability of the human mind to correlate all of it's contents."
"The primitive in each of us climbs closer to the surface during the night, for the moon sings
to it, and the cold void between the stars speaks it's languange." - Dean Koontz from the book Flase Memory
down on me, you will see a fool, Look up at me, you will see your lord. Look straight at me and you will see yourself."
"You laugh because I'm different, I laugh because you're all the same"
"I don't want to look like everyone. I see trends and try to do the opposite just to be a devil."
Pot is a plant that grows in the ground.
If god didn't want it
So all of you fuckers that don't get high
shut the fuck up and give it a try
not sure who wrote that
"We are eternal all this pain is an illusion" - TOOL
you read and wear or see and hear on t.v. is a PRODUCT BEGGING for your dirty dollar" - TOOL
"I'm praying for rain,
I'm praying for tidal waves, I want to see the ground give way, I want to watch it all go down" - TOOL
die than give you control" -NiN
"Who will survive and what will become of them? Apocolyptic dreams see the ordinary
madness" - White Zombie
Listen, you Malibu middle class Barbie piece of shit, I'm tryin' to work here! Work? You ever
work? Yeah, I'll bet you have! Scoopin' ice cream to your shit-heel friends on summer break. Well I ain't talkin' about no
goddamn white socks with Mickey Mouse on one side and Donald Duck on the other. I ain't readin' no funny books, mama! Our
bodies come and go but this blood... is forever! -Otis from House of 1000 Corpses
Why you ask? WHY is not the question. How? Now that is a question
worth examining. How could I, being born of such conventional stock, arrive a leader of the rebellion? An escapist from a
conformist world, destined to find happiness only in that which cannot be explained. I have to break free from this culture
of mechanical reproductions & the thick encrustations dying on the surface. -Otis from House of 1000 Corpses
Through the dark of future's past, the magician longs to see, one
chance out between two worlds, fire... walk with me. -Twin Peaks
Well I've had a very crazy, interesting life so far.
I moved around a lot as a child. Born in Santa Monica, California, then moved to Springfield, Virginia at 3, moved to Duluth
Minnesota around 7 or 8.. lived there until age 12 or 13, then moved to a shithole called Kansas City, Missouri. I lived there
until the end of my junior year. Then I moved (read- ran away, got taken back home by the cops & put on a plane the
next day without a goodbye to any of my friends) back here, to Cali. More precisely, Laguna Beach in Orange County,
which is between L.A. & San Diego.
I was a bad girl in school. It all started in sixth grade at ********* Magnet
School. Our classroom was on the third floor, and the principal's office was directly underneath us. I would instigate this
complete wildness with my classmates. Every time the teacher turned her back I would give the signal and we would STOMP as
hard as we could! I mean, we would go completely crazy! The office would call anywhere from 5-12 times a day, complaining.
The poor teacher didn't know what to do. When I'd get sent to the office for behaviour problems, my friends would be up there
stomping so loud, and it sounded like elephants! The plaster would be falling down onto the secretary's heads! My best friend
Nate & I used to jump off the tables before the teacher came in and crack up in the coat closet while they tried to figure
out what was causing all the commotion. It was absolutely hysterical! I still laugh thinking about it. Anarchy! Chaos! Rebellion!
Then came middle and high school in Missouri.. the "Git R'
Done state!" HA HA HA. I was new to ******* Middle School in 7th grade. I spent my time in class being wild. I threw
paper balls at the teachers when they turned around, and I was always causing trouble. I get that natural adrenaline rush
from being bad.
This led to the brief period in my life where I attended Catholic
school. ******* was fed up with my behaviour and my mum & step-dad decided that would be the best idea. I think I lasted
about 3 months. I actually met some of the coolest people there though. Kids who, like me, were sent there because they fucked
around in public school and their parents decided they needed some Catholic school disclipline. All I can say is we sure had
loads of fun at mass! Oh and hey, I got to wear one of those cute uniforms.
Then at ********* High School, I had fun terrorizing the class and if I got pissed then I left. Every day we would take the bus to school,
and get stoned in the parking lot. We had people taking bong hits behind vans, and joints and bowls going around right by
the doors to ***** Hall on main campus. What were we thinking? Anarchy! Defiance! Oh yeah and FUCK AUTHORITY. When the
ten minute bell would ring, everyone would take off to the woods surrounding the school, or this guy Brian's house people
would chill at to party all day.
Once I had my first car (Acura Integra), things were a
little different. I was going to a new high school, ***, because I had gotten expelled from ***. For a while there I really
was doing well... but my obliviance toward authority got the better of me. My friends and I screamed "4:20" every day at passing
time to piss of the preps. Basically I didn't do shit in high school but have fun, ditch class, and party with my friends.
Thinking back on it, it was actually pretty fun.... terrorizing those bastards!
The cool thing? If you're a what
I like to call a "surface-thinker" you may assume that I'm unintelligent because I didn't give a fuck in
school. Wrong. I was in gifted classes and attended Magnet school. I make straight A's if I attend class, which I did consistently
until freshman year. I have an IQ of 138. The thing is, school is bullshit! The reason I was so bad was because I was
bored with spoon-fed, robotic education & frustrated with the structure and environment in which we were supposed
to learn. When I moved out here a little over a year ago, I barely had enough credits to be a junior. I enrolled in home school,
where I could do my work alone and at my own (much faster) pace, and I graduated high school in January 2000.......
months before the rest of my class! Hmmm.
* Updated October 13th, 2001*
TO SEE TOOL ON HALLOWEEN! THIS IS BY FAR THE BEST AND MOST EXCITING THING TO HAPPEN SINCE... HMMM PROBABLY THE LAST TIME I
SAW TOOL AT OZZFEST. THIS IS GOING TO KICK ASS! Oh yeah and some other exciting (I guess) news is that last week I partied
in Hollywood and I had a blast! Ok... so what if I was on drugs?! Isn't everybody in Hollywood? : )
*Updated March 14th, 2003*
Still crazy after all these years...
*Updated July 18th, 2003*
I am now living in Tampa, Florida. I turned 21 last month!
I've been enjoying the freedom of chilling at home and not having to work, although I plan to start doing some modeling in
the next few months. In a few days I'm going on vacation with my family to Sanibel Island, which is going to be great because
we have a condo right on the beach. Also, my step-brother Mike is staying with us and we get along great so that will make
it even better. Now that I'm 21 I'll probably spend my nights checking out the local bars and hanging out on the beach
during the day. I just got high-speed internet again, so I should be uploading some new pictures and working on my site soon!
Look forward to updates in the next month! XOXO
*Updated March 22, 2005*
I am now SINGLE and enjoying my life!
*Updated June 9th, 2005*
My birthday was on June 2nd, and one of my favourite bands, VNV Nation was playing
downtown at the Madrid. POS was working the show so of course I was on the guest list (oooh- speaking of which, Rockfest
is this weekend and I'm going to see Static-X and probably meet them since POS did their lights for years!). Anyway, the VNV
show was fucking awesome and I was on some benzo's & alcohol. After the show I saw Mark Jackson so I was talking to him
and I ended up hanging out on the tour bus for hours! I got so wasted and partied with the band & crew and it was so cool.
There's some pics in the "My Pictures" section. Mainly of Mark & I.. :) We're moving to the OC probably since POS
going to work at House of Blues Anaheim. So I can't wait to be out of this shit hole and back in Cali.
*Updated June 17th, 2005*
I did get to meet Static-X and it was fucking
awesome! I talked to Wayne Static for quite a while. He was very cool and soft-spoken. This was a great day. POS &
I had so much fun chilling with Static & then the crew at the hotel. POS's mate is their sound guy and he was really cool.
He gave us some super skunky Humboldt nugs & I was all excited about this real medical marijuana jar he
had (it says West Hollywood Center for Compassionate Healing) that he gave it to me! Hell yeah. New pics of me with the
band in the 'My Pictures' section. =)
*Updated April 24th, 2006*
Happy late 4/20! Well POS & I broke up in
November. He was the biggest psycho piece of shit I have ever met in my life. If your ever at a concert and see some scraggly
looking British dude at the lighting board throw your beer bottle at his fucking head because he's a two-faced liar who hits
women. Andy Watson rot in hell you cunt fucker!!!! Hahaha. No worries though, that is all over with now and my life has been
much better without his bullshit and stress! I enjoyed the single life for a while, have been going to lots of awesome parties
& clubs in Hollywood... and still get to meet loads of famous people. I was on stage ar the key club on Sunset last night
and I met Steve-O from Jackass. He was hella cool. I also met the cast from Mtv's Laguna Beach a few months ago. Also I have
a new boyfriend (Dustin#2) who is fucking awesome, and I'm getting a new car next weekend! I've been making so many new
friends and life is going great at the moment. I have tickets to see NIN in July... fuck yeah that is going to kick ass!